December 2010
35 posts
In my experience in love… Love is laying in bed for 2 months after a break up, crying, depressed.  You feel like you’re hollow, empty, and you feel like your whole life is shattered.  Debating suicide, unable to snap out of it.  Hopeless. Love is breaking up with someone you care so much for, watching them cry… and having that rip at your seams, and eat away at your heart every...
Dec 30th
This is a conversation I was telling Tony about...
On a video on a friend’s profile.  I was an uber cunt but some fat, ugly bitches just need a dick in their mouth apparently. basically, he was saying this song is for girls who stand dudes up and i was like id stand you up when all these girls were like omg i would never! so when i said that they were like omg! I was like he knows I wouldnt. Then he was like all girls are is talk. and...
Dec 30th
Tonight was cute. Saw True Grit.  The main character reminded us of Troy so we laughed a lot during the movie.  It was funny. Then we went to a park, swung on the swings.  Same park.  No mud =] Then we went out to dinner, which took FOREVER bc we were high.  And spent 50 bucks for pizza lol Great night =]  I’m like 100 dollars less rich haha.  So worth it =]
Dec 29th
Dec 29th
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I honestly have no fucking idea why it’s so hard for a dude to want something more serious than getting his dick wet. Like… why is it that everyone interested in me just wants to fuck or get their dick sucked?  A majority of them have known and been friends with me for years… and tried to get with me for years… and never got any.  So why would I start now? I’m not a...
Dec 28th
ontheroofwithmolly asked: aww! TANYA I LOVE YOU!
Dec 27th
I’m an emotional lover. On my mind, in my heart… I can’t just fuck and it be casual. I don’t understand why so many people can. Or why so many dudes expect you to be able to. It’s not me.  I’ll never be your fuck buddy. Yesterday, I was content with where I was. Today, people wanting just sex makes me feel awkward. 
Dec 26th
deshyknee asked: He said he rather have it done a million times than to have it ripped out. and he needs to so he's not lopsided. Since now he only has one.
Dec 26th
deshyknee asked: I didn't rip his dermal out again, I just ripped it out the rest of the way :/ The first time it just came out a little bit so we were waiting to see if the skin just grew back around it.
But it only happens when my hair's up! So we've decided it always has to be down after he gets it re-done.
Dec 26th
Ok, this may sound weird.  But I’m going to attempt to explain something I’ve been thinking about today. When you care/cared for someone, you always long to talk to them.  Whether it be a text, im, email or call.  But since I feel awkward on a phone call, we’ll just say the first three. So, you want to talk to this person all the time.  Ok, maybe not all the time, but...
Dec 25th
Dec 25th
I post that… and then Troy comes over. He’s been beggin to come over for years.  Now he knows where I live. “You take way too good care of me” =] Goodnight <3
Dec 24th
I’m so exhausted. I turned down like 10 yummy chocolate goodies from my momma. I don’t want to eat.  I’ve got an ice cold Mt Dew beside me, unopened. My facial expression toward the computer could be mistaken for my ‘are you serious?’ face. Tomorrow is my Christmas.  I’m ready to eat, get drunk and sleep.  I figured drinking will help me cope with being...
Dec 24th
I honestly believe that everyone comes into your life and you learn something from everyone you meet. I have a feeling I’ve got a lot to learn from you.  But I feel like I’ve already learned so much.  I know this story isn’t written yet. The things I’ve learned, my life lessons, my do’s and don’ts.  The things that make me better, the things that make me a...
Dec 21st
Dec 21st
dalekjess asked: Hi. It's been forever since I've seen you, just wanted to see how you were.
Dec 21st
It just occurred to me, I've been asked to marry 2...
Dec 20th
Dec 20th
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Tonight was one of the most ridiculous, movie moment love story things that would ever happen in my life. So… me and a friend of mine who we’ve dug each other for years, the one I’ve talked about us being perfect together.  He and I met up, jammed so music, talked, and made plans for dates, Christmas Dinners together, road trips and doing things with his dad.  I already know his...
Dec 20th
hahahahaha.  =] So a dude is talking to me. then dates someone else. and is now unhappy and wants to hang. hahahah Karma bitch.
Dec 19th
Great night
Tonight was cute, and needed. He tells me all the time that we’re perfect together, and should date because of our awkward perfection together.  I disagree because I know the person he is, calls him out on it, and knows better.  However, I can’t deny the feelings, the things we talk about, the way we act, how we mesh so well, and how we’ve never been able to get out of each...
Dec 19th
Work today was shit. Phone calls all day over bullshit.  I hate being supervisor when everyone is unhappy about how things are being shit all over because of someone else. Thank god my District Manager gives a fuck.  She’s honestly saving us from all wanting to quit. The show was fun, besides the nonstop calls. I’m tired.  I need a get away.  Maybe Sunday?  haha :x So I have this...
Dec 18th
Dec 17th
I’m tired of busting my ass at work and never getting noticed. I cover when everyone else calls in.  When my ‘supervisor’ doesn’t show, more times than not.  And I’m always the one to find someone to cover, or cover on my off days.  Me and 2 other girls that I work with are the 3 that are always there, never call in and always bust ass.  I’m so thankful for...
Dec 17th
As an Aquarius you will go out of your way to help when needed but will refrain from getting emotionally involved.Though not easily agitated—patient and persevering—it is not easy to change an Aquarius mind or their opinions An Aquarius approach to love and marriage is logical, therefore loving with the mind, as well as with the eyes and heart.
Dec 16th
I just made the best christmas present ever.   A box, a bottle of makers, a loaf of banana bread, some candy thrown in, with a smaller box filled with peanut butter balls/bourbon balls/no bake cookies/cranberry nut cookies/macadamia nut cookies/potato candy/peanut brittle and I think theres something else i’m forgetting. Along with the most ballin hand made card ever.  I cut out a snowman,...
Dec 16th
lonelyboots: So this is my life.  And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be. Perks of Being a Wallflower
Dec 15th
I want someone to just walk up and grab me. and kiss me. No connections.  No exectations. Just kiss me.  And care enough to watch me smile.
Dec 14th
Dec 14th
I’m kinda funny sometimes. I laugh. I humor myself. Even if it’s just me being a bitch to someone. Either way, sometimes I’m witty. And I think it’s the funniest thing,  when I’m laughing 5 minutes later.
Dec 14th
want to know me... here you go.
Wow I miss hanging out with you and going to shows and always running into you, you are always a good time and people who don’t like you are stupid cunts. weve never met, but I’ve seen you a thousand times. You are in the top 5 prettiest girls I know. Sometimes it seems you kick yourself when youre down alot which needs to stop cause you’re awesome (: you’re absolutly...
Dec 12th
Say Anything Four Year Strong The Wonder Years Chunk!  No, Captain Chunk Sweatshirt Weather This Year’s Finest  Acacia Strain Kill Whitney Dead The Demonstration Thy Art Is Murder Attila Intent to Kill   Make them both happen lol
Dec 12th
I’m a bitch because I’ve been hurt/scarred. Just like everyone else.  I’m no different. I just hate when there’s something I’m going through and I can’t talk to anyone about it. I can’t post it on a status or a blog for the sake of people being little bitches about me having a problem or not keeping my head up. I can’t talk to anyone about it...
Dec 12th
I love Hughe Charles Blaske. A lot.
Dec 12th
Finally Friday.
This week has been nuts.  I’m so over work.  I’ve had to call people in every day because the schedule wasn’t done when it was left for someone else to do. However, I’m off tomorrow and Sunday.  I’m so stoked.  My phone will be off.  I will be sleeping. Tonight… seeing Gamma Pulse, They Came Bearing Arms and Through OurPerception.  Then birthday party for...
Dec 10th