January 2010
24 posts
2009
Bad wreck= head, meet windshield. Mouth, meet steering wheel. Car, meet tree.
Bad relationship= well, to keep this short… disastrous, lying, cheating, piece of shit that doesn’t even take care of his kids. Not to mention, holding on, and him giving me hope… when there was something he did to me on a weekly basis that was fucked up, or terrible.
Moved= to jtown, to mt...
December 2009
27 posts
I have a problem.
I’m strong, independent and in most situations, a positive social being.
Not exactly sure why a majority of my relationships end with them owing me money… or me being a sugar momma.
Challon. Owes me 400 dollars.
Jesse. Owes me 272 dollars.
Oh well. Single sugar momma, looking for next victim.
And this is one more sleepless night because we don’t believe in filler.
I’d like to think that my sleeplessness has nothing to do with you. That I just lay in bed and don’t think of you. I’d also like to think that I don’t miss you or that I’m not caught inside the memories, the promises, our yesterdays.
I’d like to sit here and think that I could...
coryeaves:
• The date that the Titanic sank, 4/15/1912, 4+1+5+1+9+1+2=23.
• The date the Twin Towers were hit, 9/11/2001, 9+11+2+1=23.
• It takes 23 seconds for blood to circulate through the human body
• The tilt of Earth’s axis is roughly 23 degrees.
• A human baby receives 23 chromosomes from each parent.
• The 23rd letter of the English alphabet is W. On a QWERTY keyboard, W lies...
Did you know, I cry myself to sleep more times than not? What about that I stay in my room and barely get out, and barely get out of bed? Did you know that every day, I feel like I’ll never live up to my brother. How he’s perfect in my parents eyes, that he’s always got a girlfriend or a wife and how they’re always happy and how I’m always the one that’s...
I’m pretty sure that my family has never met me.
Like, they don’t know me… at all.
A leopard snuggie. the one thing I probably make fun of more than anything.
An Ed Hardy Hat… to make me look like the douchebags I make fun of. (it however is the only thing I’ll probably wear)
shaving cream. the same 2 things of shaving cream have sat in the shower for 3 years....
To hear...
That he is out, living in her house.
With internet, and a phone
with his truck and everything…
It gets under my skin that he hasn’t contacted me.
The one person who gave him the benefit of the doubt at all costs, who sacrificed so much, who did so much, and loved no matter how much it hurt.
So here’s to the memories, that are easier to deal with now.
Here’s to the...
This song makes me cry. every time.
Nothing compares to you. I can’t let you go. I’ll never be the same, not after loving you. I’ll never be the same, I’m caught inside the memories, the promises, our yesterdays. I belong to you, I just can’t walk away. Cuz after loving you, I can never be the same.
Red- Never be the Same
today has been filled with some silly ol shit
Let me just say…
Kevin Singleton
is by far
the most fun person I talk to every day of my life.
This weekend was insane.
And I could not be more stoked about it.
Lots of time with some tight ass friends. Totally in awe over the strip club the other day haha, that shit was too silly… and for a bunch of us metal kids to come in. Not to mention the things the stripper said and tried to do with me and Jaggers. HILARIOUS.
Then last night. Silly shit, but i wasn’t going to let one of my girls, be the...
Dear pathetic waste of a human being.
You know you’re a pathetic waste of a human being…
when your whole family… sister, brother, mom, kids, ex wife… think you’re worthless.
But when you’re own two kids think you’re a liar, and an alcoholic and have zero respect for you.
That’s fucking sad.
I miss...
the comfort of knowing someone is ‘home’
the ease of being able to pop up and cuddle and know that person is completely stoked on it.
Being held.
Being okay.
Having answers.
I really wish I had someone that I could just pop up to their house, no questions asked… no bullshit… and would let me crawl in bed with them. Probably cry. But for them to hold me. And just let...
Things I want to accomplish,
1- Getting away from the destructiveness that is you.
2- Be okay with that.
3- Love again (how will the story end, no one really knows).
4- Be okay with that.
Words can not express
How much I will miss “Inept”.
And by Inept.
I mean Ian and Joey, Kevin, Anthony and Lucas.
Kev and Browntown not so much. I’ll see them in a few weeks.
And I mean, me and Ian have a date on my birthday. And I’ll see Joeyo in 2 weeks.
But I’ll probably never see Lucas again. =[ and I’m really crying just thinking of that.
But tonight.
To see Joey in a...
Deleted that last one.
Im watching divorce court.
Why the fuck have I dated this man for over a year and him and his wife were seperated for a year and a half, and their divorce is still not finished? My brother was divorced within 2 weeks of the papers being filed. But no, he always kept her around, it was always some excuse to be around her.
Now, *for those of you wanting an update* he’s sympathetic toward...
So it's set.
Tomorrow= Buying a rad ipod from Richard. And brotime with him. I miss the shit outta that kid.
And Saturday, tickets are bought, Inept, Artifex Pereo… and a band I couldn’t care about any less.
Seriously.
I miss AP so much.
And, Joey and Ian are playing some with Inept.
STOKED.
stoked.stoked.stoked.
=]
I know what to expect.
mhmmdana:
tanya502:
I know what’s going to happen.
He will go back to her.
He will live in that house with her, comply to everything she wants.
and I will not wait around for him.
He won’t be able to talk to me.
He won’t be allowed to see me.
She will keep him on lock down more than the home incarceration program.
Now, the hard part will be making myself okay with this.
And moving...
I'm in love.
This is what I said to someone on facebook last night.
It’s been nonstop disasterous, perfect, positive, difficult, most rewarding love I’ve ever had. The kind where you know you never really loved that intense. I’m still as in love with him as when we lived together for a few weeks
:sigh:
But let me tell you what, I’m getting someone that is keeping me company right...
This is for Ms. Pennington =]
chelcbell:
tanya502:
www.wcarsucks.com
Bahahaha this is awesome! I love you dude.
=]
They’re getting a kick out of it.
A whole other month without him.
Instead of coming home,
instead of being done,
instead of going back to jail. He has to stay a whole other month at rehab.
Which, btw, I was told today, he will never be able to contact me because hes only allowed to contact family. Do you not see that I’m closer to that man than anyone in his family?
Time will tell.
He snuck a little bit.
And the...
chelcbell:
Bands I really wish would fall dead:
Forever the Sickest Kids Never Shout Never A Rocket to the Moon We Came As Romans Family Force 5 Owl City Attack Attack Brokencyde? Metro Station Etc.
I don’t have to listen to these bands or bands like them to know that they are worthless. I pretty much want to vomit when I see girls and even some guys talk about how much they love these bands....
Aquarious/Aquarious compatibility.
An Aquarius individual is very outgoing, friendly and socially active. He is one of those people who count every second person as their friend. In a love match where both the partners belong to the Aquarius zodiac sign, there will be lots of fun, adventure and excitement. Both the individuals love freedom and will respect each other’s individuality. An Aquarian often feels the need to remain...
Letter 5.
Baby,
I could write letter after letter, tell you a million things you already know, and repeat myself again and again. But I’ll summarize and just get to the point and tell you what I really want you to know.
1. I love you.
2. I miss you.
3. I’m only yours.
4. I think of you nonstop- whether happy or sad, you’re in my every thought.
5. This has been insanely hard without...