January 2009
7 posts
All I really want.
All I want is for you to want me.
To persue me. And to want to see me.
To stop at NOTHING til you get what you want,
Til you get to see me, talk to me.
I want you to Fight for me, fight for what we have.
I’ve never thought I asked too much til recently.
5 minutes just to see you, is apparently too much.
It breaks my heart that you don’t fight for this more.
That you...
yes.
I’m a weird one.
I start back at Lifetouch in a week.
With that and Terry Harper shows, as always, I’ll be rollin with some money.
My goal is to within the year, to move to Louisville.
And ya know, achieve happiness.
There’s a lot of music that just makes me happy.
Which would be the reason, I’d rather just listen to music, than live any day.
anddddd...
It’s been two months to the day since our first ‘date’.
Roughly two years that I’ve known him.
Sickening.
Disturbing.
him: I wanna drink your bath water! lol
me: whattt
him: Hehe
me: that would mean you would have to see me so okay
him: Lololol
me: so when am i gonna see you next?
me: this weekend didndt happen and i miss you
him: How about spring time when the bunnys and flowers bloom? J/K
me: if you say so
him: Jus kiddin hun my bad
me: its okay
him: I will start playing the lottery also
him: So we can be rich lol
me: too much wishful thinking within the last 2 mintues for my likes lol
him: Well damn.
Sleep
Didn’t come so easily last night.
I laid in bed for hours. Thinking. Hoping. Wishing.
Watching tv. Movies. Reality shows. Music Videos. Listening to music. Visiting websites.
I didn’t finally sleep til 630. And I’ve been up since 1015 to the sound of someone puking. Awesome.
I have high hopes for today. But I also expect let downs for every hope.
Never in my life.
Has life been so absolutely beautiful.
I’ve never had a love like this.
I’ve never met a man like him.
Everyday, I may cause him to want to lose his mind.
and Everyday, I may question how much he loves me, if at all.
But the moment he says “I love you”
everything about me melts.
The worst part is.
I love him too.